Never alone



So strange thing happened to me earlier this week. I was out for a late night walk trying to calm myself down after a rather unpleasant conversation with a now ex-friend and I ended up walking about 4-5 miles away from the dorm heading out of city limits on the bike path they have. It was just past the last streetlight and from there it would be darkness, but I had been watching some deer crossing the road and listening to nature around me, like the water in the river going over the rocks, the bullfrogs croaking, the owls who, and other noises. Those deer suddenly perked up and ran off, not unusual at all since I was walking towards them, but it was odd at how far out they were from me. Normally the deer near town you can get with 15-20 feet before they run, and these ones were about 50 feet out yet. I kept going not really thinking much of it for about another 100 feet and then something felt really, really wrong. Everything went silent minus the river, no bullfrogs, no owls, not even the wind. And the hairs on the back of my neck were standing straight up. It honestly felt like when you can tell someone is staring at you, only cranked up to 11. I looked around but since it was just darkness in front of me there was nothing to see, yet I could kinda get a feel to where this gaze was coming from and it was in that darkness. The feeling just kept getting worse and then I just had a thought of “if you try to press on here you will not see the light of day” and then every bone in my body said “Run!” I ran in what I can only full fledged terror for about 1/4 mile before I stopped and made sure nothing was following me. I don’t know why I felt like I did, but I do know there are big cats in the region along with big horn sheep, neither of which I would’ve wanted to run into in the dead of night.


The way I explain it to people is that it's not the dark I'm afraid of, it's what could be hiding in it that I'm afraid of.